why don't i miss it?
self discovery through sobriety
day 245 of my sobriety
I thought it would be impossible to live without alcohol.
But I don't miss it yet.
Not even a little bit.
I'm still learning how just be in my body.
Not intellectualizing fear.
Not running from stress.
Not numbing social anxiety.
Just being in my body, feeling my full range of sensation - unconditionally.
I don't yet know why this sobriety journey chose me.
As if 3 mimosas at Sunday brunch or 2 margaritas at Saturday dinner before a movie was ever a problem for me.
But the question kept coming up...
Does alcohol really feel as good in my body as I believe it does?
No. It really didn't.
Now I think I see why I don't miss it…
Sinking into every innate sensation teaches me how to rest in the full spectrum of my mind and body's experiences, no matter how uncomfortable and overwhelming.
Now I feel Me, deeply.
congratulations on reaching day 245!!! today will be day 247 now, and sometimes the days will just be numbers and the moments will feel more like a deeper connection to yourself ♡ i started my sober journey almost 5 years ago now - i've had many hiccups in between, unsure of where i stood, if it was necessary for me to be so ""strict"" with myself. unlike what i read you saying in your comments, i enjoyed some aspects of drinking, i'm a sucker for traditional cocktails and pairings etc lol. but that's not a now problem :) just like you, *now i feel me, deeply* ♡
This is beautiful and I can deeply relate. I started my sobriety journey almost for fun, and it was supposed to be a week long - but this October is going to be 3 years! I re-discovered myself in a completely different light and I wish everyone would experience that at least once. Can't wait to read more from you!!